DIARY ENTRY - 4TH. FEBRUARY 2010

Well, the bad news arrived today. I can't say much about it because I may need to get legal advice first.

But I will say this. As modern, liberal minded people who are far too enlightened to believe in devils and mumbo jumbo etc., we can be so easily knocked off our feet when the reality of our true situation comes home to us. The truth is that we are fighting against pure evil. On it's own that is bad enough but, of course, we are also up against a heck of a lot of gullible people who, though not pure evil themselves, are easily influenced by, and so easily used, by whatever pure evil is.

My downfall has come out of an act of generosity on my part. It came out of my desire to collaborate and respect the people of my congregation. Unfortunately, it was seen as weakness by a few gatekeepers and bullies who took the opportunity to make sure that an inclusive minded priest would never be in charge of what they consider to be their church.

But the real pain is knowing that, with the exception of a couple of true friends at my church, nobody believes the true circumstances of what happened. Most worrying, because I was not liked by them in the first place, it seems those in authority over me don't believe me and, if they do, then they have deliberately decided to placate the aggressive parties and sacrifice me.

Worst of all, from the point of view of my own peace of mind, I have to wait weeks to find out what fate has been decided for me. I have been told this but I have not been given any indication of what has been decided. I don't think I matter. In fact, I'm coming to the conclusion that ordinary parish priests don't matter, full stop (period).